The Word Indifference

Reason For Love . 

Everyone in this world have something precious to them . That precious thing is something that it would kill them to lose it .

This leaves me with more question than I can count .

What is the form of this precious thing ? 

Some say life is precious to them .

Some say their loved one's is the precious thing .

Some say their wealth is precious to them .

Some says their instrument is their lifeline .

I once meet a boy who loved his instrument more than life itself . For his instrument he is willing to do all kind of sacrifice . I found this beautiful yet confusing because I have never felt that way , never felt the need to love something so much that it may cause me physical ache . Sometime I find myself a cold person for not feeling an ounce of passion for anything in this world . 

If something important to me had been lost .

I would be sad about it for a period of time but in the end I would have learned to accept it .

I have never craved for anything .

I allow things to flow in it's own pace .

Even if I feel for someone hard I would still just take a step back , close my eyes , hide both my hands behind me and smile . I would never want to hold him or want him as mine . Why would I even want to grab him as mine ?  In the end we would both have to part ways might as well never start . My heart would not allow it . I have no reason to love or to wish . 

It's sad fact .

I might be a really cold bitch that couldn't trust this world enough but this is who I am and no one has manage to change it . Not even myself .

Tell me if you found me a reason to throw away this indifference attitude of mine . 

Give me a reason for love .

x]

The Truth Of Death

Image taken from Google .

The truth of death is a very depressing truth that many in this world struggle to accept .

After I found out the news regarding the case in Boston this April I found the need to bring out this fact . 

Lives were taken and pain was left behind in a place covered with smokes and blood . I have also faced death of a beloved one before . The physical pain of a throbbing chest when I found out about that person's death . 

For times and times again I screamed for a miracle .

I knew a day would come that she would leave me , leave me and this painful world behind . I might even have counted the days that she would wave goodbye to me with death taking her hands .

Although when she was laying on her death bed .

Nothing could have stopped me from letting out all those painful screams and cries . Nothing could have stopped me from holding onto her frail hand and hope that it was still warm .

As a child I was naive and did many things that I am regretting as a grown up . 

I remember waking up at midnight with tears in my eyes but I wiped it away because I believe my pain would only cause her pain in that better world . 

Now many years had past the taste of regret have never left me but I have learned to accept . 

I have learned to accept the truth of death .

To all those out there that had lost someone they love I offer you my sincere prayers may the pain in your heart be subside .

Remember of all those beautiful memories you once had with the person who had left you .Do not let them feel sad over our invisible pain .

Remember that one day that fate will allow you to cross path with that beloved person once again .

Sincere prayers to everyone out there . =3